Well, this one is going to be short too.
All is not lost, just the job (so far)... and the future is looking kinda bleek, but I guess I should let y'all know that I am gonna be ok. Even though the Owner is quite a flake about the whole situation. I suppose I need to cut my losses and realise I can still keep in touch with my friends I made there. As much as I don't want to try to find a new job I probably need to. As a few of my friends tried to console me, perhaps this did happen for a reason and perhaps this is the beggining to a new chapter of my life. Who honestly knows but Our Father?
Hopefully I'll find a place that will appreciate my hard work again. The question stands: Do I go to another serving job or just try something altogether different?
I may never really go there more than once in a blue moon; that is, to eat, but I'll often visit my friends. They all miss me already and it's still coming as quite a shock to the rest of the servers still finding out after a week's elapsed and I'm not on the new schedule. If it were as simple as a petition, I have a few frineds that would start it. I doubt that would really make a difference to the guy. He based his decision on a couple others that didn't really see what happened completely. I still have a hard time beleiving I'm history there.
Bah.
Time to move on, and glancing back is hard to do, especially while trying to move on.
Thanks for letting me know you're still out there guys. Perhaps I have a lot more time on my hands these days. If ya know of any good opportunities lemme know, I need a good paying job.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Friday, September 09, 2005
Catching up on Blogs of those cool people that actually read mine
Well it has been a long time since I have actually blogged and for good reason. I have been in the midst of changes and didn't have computer access for a month at least and now that I have it I spend more of my leisure time thinking.
Recently I lost a job I loved for a ridiculous scenerio not unlike Potifer's Wife and Joseph. I felt like the one being punished for her advances and that is pretty much what happened. Perhaps I should have ran 3 seconds sooner and I'd still be there.
SO amidst the new semester changes and all that, I am starting to finally get settled into my new place and then the realization of what's going on in my life hits me. After trying to get the guts up to tell my girlfriend that I just want to be friends she gives me a Two month anniversary card she hand-made and complicated things.. it was the following monday I lost my job and avoided talking to her all together for a day because I didn't think I would be able to handle it. Anyhow, she tracked me down and we talked about the incident at work and then since I was in the frustration release mode it trickled into the conversation and she even mentioned that she had started to feel the same way. That we could be friends but it wasn't really going anywhere. Now I don't know if that is what she was really thinking or if she was jsut saying that to make it easier on me in this emotionally slashed week. Overall I'm still waiting for a chance to speak with the owner and see if there isn't a possibility of a second chance there. Untill I figure out which way that is going I am still secretly losing a lot of my focus and sanity. I just couldn't belive the whole thing; it's like one of those things that seems like a bad dream becasue it just doesn't feel real.
In any case I'm still alive and losing sleep over the whole ordeal. I even lost a lot of my appetite. Still it's hard to fight the tears when I start to think of not being able to work with so many of the friends that I loved there.
well I should end this before it gets too painful to rehash. My train of thought is not even easy to read right now in this exhauseted state. I appologize for that because I know a few of my friends that read this will doubtless see the lack of good structure especially in this post. Exhaustion and fatigue of mind and spirit are what I will blame it on, as well as the emotional strain that goes with it.
Anyhow, Im still here.
Recently I lost a job I loved for a ridiculous scenerio not unlike Potifer's Wife and Joseph. I felt like the one being punished for her advances and that is pretty much what happened. Perhaps I should have ran 3 seconds sooner and I'd still be there.
SO amidst the new semester changes and all that, I am starting to finally get settled into my new place and then the realization of what's going on in my life hits me. After trying to get the guts up to tell my girlfriend that I just want to be friends she gives me a Two month anniversary card she hand-made and complicated things.. it was the following monday I lost my job and avoided talking to her all together for a day because I didn't think I would be able to handle it. Anyhow, she tracked me down and we talked about the incident at work and then since I was in the frustration release mode it trickled into the conversation and she even mentioned that she had started to feel the same way. That we could be friends but it wasn't really going anywhere. Now I don't know if that is what she was really thinking or if she was jsut saying that to make it easier on me in this emotionally slashed week. Overall I'm still waiting for a chance to speak with the owner and see if there isn't a possibility of a second chance there. Untill I figure out which way that is going I am still secretly losing a lot of my focus and sanity. I just couldn't belive the whole thing; it's like one of those things that seems like a bad dream becasue it just doesn't feel real.
In any case I'm still alive and losing sleep over the whole ordeal. I even lost a lot of my appetite. Still it's hard to fight the tears when I start to think of not being able to work with so many of the friends that I loved there.
well I should end this before it gets too painful to rehash. My train of thought is not even easy to read right now in this exhauseted state. I appologize for that because I know a few of my friends that read this will doubtless see the lack of good structure especially in this post. Exhaustion and fatigue of mind and spirit are what I will blame it on, as well as the emotional strain that goes with it.
Anyhow, Im still here.
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